shyness

No recipe today! If you were hoping for one, I apologize. I’ve got some random thoughts instead. I hope you don’t mind!

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I’ve read a couple times now on a blog that the writer thinks shyness is useless and ridiculous. This got me a little heated and made me think about my own situation.

I wrote a post about my personality type a while back. The first characteristic was ‘introvert’. I didn’t choose to be one but I actually like the way I am. Thank you very much!

That was the only rant, don’t worry.

Now I’m not a mute without friends or something but I do have trouble in social situations with new people, get sweaty palms like my Dad, and according to the Starbucks near our house, I (and my husband) speak too quietly because they almost always get our order wrong! I even speak up on purpose when we’re out because I know people will have trouble hearing me. Ha.

This past week a couple thoughts have been running through my mind on the subject. I can’t seem to get a cohesive post together but my fingers want to keep typing so here are my tidbits:

  • When I was younger, I had a much more difficult time with this stuff but nowadays I’m used to it. I know how I’ll react to any social situation. I attempt counteract my shyness and break out of my shell quicker. Living more in the present and being aware, I’d say.
  • During my main ‘growing up’ years I lived in Puerto Rico. When you greeted a friend or even met someone for the first time, you often air-kissed them on the cheek. I personally found that this helped break the ice -> ‘Well I’ve already kissed you on the cheek, let’s be best friends!’. It worked pretty well for me! I moved back to Florida three years later and someone attempted to shake my hand. What in the? No friendly kiss? I gave them a floppy, wimpy hand. I don’t even think I shook it! I was lost in my own country’s customs. After my technique was made fun of by some random lady, I finally got my act together and shook with confidence. My Puerto Rican brain still thinks shaking hands = awkward. This doesn’t help in social situations!
  • Blogging is awesome because I don’t have to be shy!! Well I was nervous about writing this post but what the hay. You’re still reading it so that’s good!
  • I’ve read somewhere that many writers are introverts. They often hate the book signings because they have to interact with people. Pretty interesting.
  • I’m part Norwegian, introversion is in my blood. ‘At first, you may think they are acting as if they have no more room for  for friendship, but once they feel comfortable with you (and often this happens quickly), you will get to know them better and strong ties of friendship will develop.’ (source) So pretty much, I may appear lifeless at first when someone meets me but that’s because I’m shy and not because I’m a cold, hard… well, ya know. 😉

Does anyone else out there have similar traits or even just thoughts on the subject? I don’t read about this issue online much so I thought it’d be interesting to see what comes of it.

live a little

Wow, it has been a tiring week. Lots of people were on vacation at work so I filled in for them. I give props to everyone who works full time in the medical field. I can’t imagine trying to take care of the dogs (let alone kids) and also live a healthy lifestyle after being on my feet all week! Those people are gods.

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I, like many people, live in the past or the future. We’re too worried and worked up. We go through life wandering until we realize we aren’t really living.

I found a great Oprah quote that explains where I’m going with this:

Living in the moment means letting go of the past and not waiting for the future. It means living your life consciously, aware that each moment you breathe is a gift. — Oprah Winfrey

Often times if I’m in a funk and can’t seem to stick to my healthy habits, I decide that the day is a wash and give up. Thinking to myself, ‘ Tomorrow I’ll start eating healthy’ or ‘Next week I’ll get back to the gym’.

That’s one of the reasons I wrote this post to help me stay on track. If you haven’t read it yet, it’s about doing little healthy things that can add up to more of a routine. But what happens when you can’t bring yourself to do just one? What happens when you keep putting things off and struggle to make healthy habits a routine?

This week I was supposed to start running again. Up until Wednesday I used the excuse of a very busy work week to skip my running. ‘Next week I’ll start running again, I just don’t have time.’ is what I thought to myself.

There were two things that helped me get out of this cycle of not living in the present.

One is a mantra I picked up from Elisa. She uses the word ‘believe’ to help her get through her training workouts. I thought I’d try it out not just for workouts but every time I landed in a funk and negative thoughts would creep in. Let me tell you it works! I’ve been using the word since Monday and I haven’t felt this happy in months. Saying the word in my head stops those negative thoughts and helps me move on with what I’m doing in the present. I believed I could eat healthy this week and I did. I believed I could stay chipper this week and I did. I believed I’d run this week and I did. It’s amazing what a little word can do!

The second is not a thing but a person. I look up to all the Vets that I work with but I have really taken to one in particular. She’s a runner for one thing, has run a marathon (!!), and is a healthy, happy person. No matter how ridiculous a patient’s parents are, she is friendly and kind. It’s an amazing thing to watch! Such a genuine person.

I hold her on a pedestal so to my surprise on Wednesday, I found out that she has trouble motivating herself to workout and struggles with negative thoughts too! We both love to workout and know we need it to mentally and physically feel good but to just DO it is tough. As I left for work she said, ‘Have a good workout!’. Of course I groaned and said I really wasn’t sure if I could do it.

‘Believe.’

On my drive home I got to thinking. The Vet was so motivating and had lifted my spirits. I decided to live in the present for her. I physically didn’t have the time and energy to workout that night but I WAS going to wake up at 5:00 am and run. I hadn’t ran since the 10k and really needed to get back into it. She would be so excited for me when I told her at work. Maybe I’d even help her get back into working out too.

I got out all my running clothes and placed them in the bathroom so I’d be able to just get up and go. At 5am on Thursday, I ran. I ran for four miles and felt great! Like I thought, she was super excited for me when I got to work.

It’s funny how things work out in life. If I hadn’t started a blog I wouldn’t have met Elisa and learned of her mantra. If I hadn’t changed careers I would’ve never met the Vet and had the motivation to run and run far.

Last night my husband said, ‘I believe that all things happen for a reason. It’ll all work out.’ He’s so right.

I’m currently living in the present and hope to continue on with my moments, mornings, and Mondays. Now that I have a little more help to do them, I know I’ll be able to.

I’ll leave you with another Oprah quote to finish up:

“The greatest discovery of all time is that a person can change his future by merely changing his attitude.” — Oprah Winfrey

So true Oprah!!

What do you do to get yourself out of a funk?

she could be my friend

“She could be my friend.” This has been a pretty common line that I dish out to my husband whenever I see a potential bud. “She could be my friend if she weren’t walking away and not interacting with me. Darn! Maybe next time.” This is not the best way to find your new BFF. I have realized this and am finally figuring out my plan of attack.

So I work from home. I just recently moved to a new city and I work from home. I am no longer in school and I work from home. The bottom line? I have no friends (and I work from home). Well I have no friends in the city that I currently live in – no friends at all would just be horribly depressing! Anyways, I have a couple ideas on how to fix this problem and here they are:

  1. join a gym – I’m hoping to meet some people at yoga class. Regularly seeing them twice a week makes it much easier for me to start a conversation.
  2. join clubs – There are so many different types of clubs to join. I’ve already joined one volunteer club and will be joining more soon! Sunday night bowling? I’m in.
  3. meet the neighbors – This is a given but for people like my husband and I it’s tough. Hi I’m going to randomly come to your house and introduce myself! Maybe a beer or three should be consumed before we attempt such a grand gesture.
  4. volunteer – As you know I’ve volunteered once so far. I met some really great people with similar passions which is nice!
  5. patience – I know I might not find a best friend tomorrow but man I wish! I need to remember that friendships take time.

I’ll keep you posted on my search. I bet there will be some great stories! If any potential friends are reading this right now, I have one requirement – must love dogs.

the beginning of our friendship