slowing down to pick myself up

I’m turning inward today! I hope that’s okay.

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When I’m stuck in a rut I easily become overwhelmed – with my to-do list, my relationships, my life. I’m currently at this point.

I truly believe I should be able to fix this problem and have attempted all my life to do so. I’ve written posts about this subject here, here, and here. I’m always able to stay on top of things for a couple weeks but then I get to busy, stressed and everything goes out the window.

I’m so very tired of this vicious cycle.

I watched a documentary on Friday night called Happy. It’s about people and what makes them truly happy.

That night I was up at 3:30 thinking about it. I panicked during this bout of insomnia, feeling overwhelmed about failing to be happy.

After a few hours, my mind started to settle and clear. I began to try and figure out what I could do to fix my problem.

I’ve had a couple nights like this in the past few weeks. They remind me of one night of insomnia last year when I realized I wanted to quit my old job (and career) that I went to school for so long for. Now I’m at a completely new job and loving it so I’m thinking I’m at the cusp of another step in the right direction.

Thank goodness.

When I’m overwhelmed I usually find something to escape my feelings. My go-to options are TV, the Internet, food, and my dogs. I think spending time with my dogs does help me feel better and more present but the other stuff really doesn’t. I feel lazy and stressed once I finally decide to get my butt off of the couch. I’m also usually doing a combination of TV, Internet, and food so I’m even more removed from ‘real’ life! Not good.

I know that it’s definitely healthy to escape the hustle and bustle of real life sometimes but lately for me it’s getting in the way of living that life.

My epiphany on Saturday night/morning was something that I already know but have a hard time doing.

To really try to become happier, I’ve got to take it slow. I’m going to focus on fixing one poor habit at a time. Anything else I do that might not be considered healthy doesn’t matter for now. I just have one thing to do. That’s it. That should keep me from getting worked up.

I’m thinking I’ll start with no TV. Without TV I’d have soooo much more time to do things that I really love like gardening, reading, art, even chores! If I’m successful… wait…Β when I’m successful, I’ll be able to replace one bad habit with tons of other good options. Perfect.

I’m sure there are other people out there like me but man does it feel like I’m the only person sometimes with these silly struggles.

I hope to update you on my progress next week. This should hold me accountable!

Who’s overwhelmed? Who’s with me? Who has some words of wisdom for all of us?Β 

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7 comments on “slowing down to pick myself up

  1. Erica says:

    I feel you! I’m the same way. I worry to much and get bogged down too easily. I need to learn to just let things go sometimes, but that is extremely hard for me.

    I love documentaries and need to check that one out. I hope I don’t lose sleep over it too. πŸ˜‰

    I’ve tried to limit my TV viewing too… it really does give you loads more free time. You’ll be amazed!

    • Adrienne says:

      I’m not happy that you have these problems too but I am happy that there’s someone else out there that can relate!!

      Haha, you shouldn’t. It’s a very entertaining movie.

      Good, I hope so!

  2. elisariva says:

    Remember – you are b

    • elisariva says:

      Let’s try this again! You are not perfect! But you are perfectly YOU. Working on one thing at a time is smart. I have learned something I can improve on, but my underlying weakness may linger – or never go away. Discipline helps to move forward, but sometimes I may slip. That is when I have learned to. It myself some slack, correct course and move on. Being happy is a result of being content with who you are!

      • Adrienne says:

        You’re right (as always)! πŸ™‚ I’m not good at just accepting what I’ve got. I would loooove to be content with who I am now and not who I might be!

  3. These were some deep thoughts! I’ve been going through a bout like this recently where I’ve been wondering why my family doesn’t seem happy and what we can do to get out of this rut. I feel like my husband is so stressed in his job and I just don’t know how to help him. For me, the ultimate answer to my happiness is finding myself in Jesus, and I think both my husband and I had lost some perspective about that recently. When my faith is not central to my life, everything is outta whack. I have also been mulling some other ways to choose happiness, productivity, and diligence over laziness, procrastination, and a bad attitude. I love your idea of less/no TV and more time! Keep us updated on how it goes. πŸ™‚

    • Adrienne says:

      My husband is stressed at his job as well! It’s a tough situation when you just want to help but can’t. We’ll figure it out. So far so good with no TV! πŸ™‚

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